I never remember very clearly how it starts – it always seems a bit blurry.
But then I find myself finishing an entire piece of the most delicious, moist carrot cake on a Sunday morning. How did this happen…? How is it possible to go from super motivated and focused, to stuffing my face with my all too familiar drug of choice – SUGAR?
I can tell you how it happens…
I will have an emotionally down day or moment – and then I go to that familiar mind-set:
“Sugar will definitely help me to feel better, it will give me energy and that feel good factor that I desperately need (and feel I deserve) RIGHT NOW.”
Then I give in to a biscuit with my coffee, have one of my toddler’s sweet treats… and its like a slippery slope down hill (ok it’s not THAT bad, but you get what I am saying…).
Next thing I think to myself, well you have given in so you might as well have a couple of biscuits, or a piece or 2 milk tart (this was yesterday) and carrot cake…(today)…?
And the next thought…. Tomorrow is Monday and it’s basically the beginning of a new month… perhaps this time I will kick the habit and a few kg’s before summer…?
BUT I HAVE BEEN HERE BEFORE… And there’s no time for denial anymore – I am just too SICK of it. Time to get REAL people!!!! O.k… I am trying really hard to motivate myself…
Human willpower (for most of us) just freaking fails us time and time again. It’s the reason why new years resolutions are mostly a waste of time… and the: I will start on Monday… or next month or whatever…
So WHAT NOW??? I so desperately want to live healthier – and for me right now – this means cutting out the white stuff. And the white floury stuff.
I heard a talk the other day… she said you need to 1st OF ALL – FIGURE OUT YOUR WHY.
Your WHY needs to be important enough to carry you through those familiar moments where you typically give in.
MY WHY? I want to do what I can to not get sick. I want to feel less achy, less moody, less tired and totally be there for my hubby and busy toddler. And perhaps most of all right now – I am searching for a holistic, sustainable lifestyle cure for insomnia & anxiety.
What is you why?
Love Helene x x x